You know, life is hard sometimes. I don’t care how many Instagross posts or Fakebook posts, or Twitter posts people do about how fantastic their lives are, because they are living a lie. They are living for likes on their social media posts because they want people to think their lives are full of fun, happiness, love, adventure etc etc, but really they aren’t. It’s a forced life lived for others. They are not really being true to themselves, or their followers. Oh, sometimes they may say that they’ve had a bad day in one post, but the next post is back to all sunshine and bubbles.
You won’t get all those fake fluffy, sunflower and rainbow posts here. Oh, no, I like to be pretty real here.
So many professing Christians say that a Christian should never be depressed or down, because it’s sin. But is that really scriptural? Nope, of course not. Not to the extent that they are saying anyways.
Life is hard. Life is difficult. Even great men in the Bible were depressed and down in certain seasons of their lives.
Chapter 3 in Job was full of grief and sadness over a traumatic time in his life. Peter wept bitterly and was so upset with himself because he denied Christ, something he said he would never do.
I can’t think of any more specific examples right now, but David had a hard time, and ultimately, even Jesus felt inner pain and cried out “And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” Matthew 27:46
But, yes, there it is, there’s usually always a ‘but’ with me.. God knows that we have emotions and we feel deep pain, He has Himself when He regretted creating people for a time, but in those seasons of deep hurt and pain, we are to give thanks. We simply do not know how God is going to use these testing times in our lives for His good.
In the last month or so I keep seeing 1 Thessalonians 5:18. I must happen upon it at least once a week now, so I do think the Lord is trying to tell me something.
“In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”
This is hard. It’s really hard to give thanks when all you want to do is curl up in bed and never come back out. It’s hard to give thanks when all you see is a dark road ahead with no ‘light at the end of the tunnel’ so to speak. It’s hard to give thanks when you have sinned so greatly that you wonder how the Lord could even look upon you let alone love you and want to bless you.
It’s hard to give thanks when you doubt that God is there. It’s hard to give thanks when people keep coming against you like tidal wave after tidal wave and you feel battered and broken and you can barely breathe let alone speak. It’s hard when you simply do not know what God is doing behind the scenes and won’t even give you a sneak preview let alone show you what He’s doing. It’s really hard when you have a heavy, clouded heart and mind as the picture depicts.
It’s hard. Really hard.
But give thanks we must. We must at least try. God has promised us that He will never leave nor forsake us, so we must in return give thanks. Even if it’s just once to start off with. The more we do it the easier it will get. (This is me telling myself here by the way.)
I’m sure someone drew this picture of me right now, because it is certainly how I am at this point in my life. Things are going from bad to worse and my heart and mind are truly heavy.
I don’t say this because I want attention, I’m saying all this because I know I’m not the only one, and I know I’m not the only one who feels bad for feeling bad. Like I said, many good, solid god fearing men had great sin and pain in their lives, but I believe they are there as an example of what God can do in a person’s life. Even just posting this has encouraged me somewhat knowing that I’m not the only one, and that people far, far greater than myself suffered as well.
I’m still hoping and praying for a miraculous breakthrough for these situations in my life, and if the Lord wills it all, it will be a really encouraging testimony.
I’m sorry this was so long, but I do hope that if you are also suffering, please know that it’s ok, and that you are not alone. God knows what you are going through, and He still loves you. He knew before time began that this very minute you would be hurting, or in great sin, and He still chose you to be one of His regardless.
This season will pass, you may need to just ride it out.
And one other thing I learned yesterday, or should I say, one thing the Lord showed me yesterday, is that when He is quiet, we are probably being tested. If we’ve prayed, fasted, prayed, submitted etc and still we hear nothing, then we could very well be being tested by the Lord. Pray, and ask Him what He is trying to teach you in this hard season.
God bless you. ✝️